Which brother should I choose

Alice's POV

We were out of the bazaar place right now and he was questioning me. Me!

"He was going to kiss you if I didn't arrive on time for god's sake. Didn't yesterday mean anything to you?" he asked.

Look at the audacity! He has abandoned me twice after we had intimate moments, and now he is standing before me and questioning my devotion to this relationship? If there is one.

"I guess I need to ask you the same question. You didn't call me or text me after yesterday. Do you regret what we did yesterday?" I asked.

He looked at me in shock like I suddenly grew a second head. I guess he wasn't expecting the sweet little assistant to talk him back. He was thinking that he could come to me anytime he likes and pull himself away, and I would wait for him no matter what. Because I was an inexperienced and foolish girl. But he was wrong about something. I was inexperienced but not a fool.

He paced the area in front of me up and down and dragged his hand through his hair. Like he was searching for an answer to my question. Then turned and faced me one more time.

"Look Alice. I am not the type of man that has romantic relationships. I generally fuck and leave. But the thing I am feeling for you is different and new to me. And it scares me. I am fighting with my urges and my habits when it comes to you." he said looking earnest. He extended a hand and cupped my face with his huge palm then caressed my cheek with his thumb.

I looked into his eyes and felt like he was telling the truth. Even though he didn't know it was true. His green eyes were full of emotions. And I really saw the jealousy back there when he saw us with Antonio. Maybe he was lost when it comes to feelings. But what about me? He was right about one thing. I was about to kiss Antonio if he hadn't arrived on time. What was I thinking?

I pulled myself out of his touch. I was understanding him but this didn't mean I forgave him.

"What you did back there was rude and unacceptable. I am not your property and I can be anywhere I like with anyone I choose. You are demanding so much for a man who has not deciphered his own feelings, yet. So you want me to stay in a safe place until you decide to pick me or not. Well, I am not that girl."

"I know, I know... I am sorry okay? I didn't want to act like that. It was all impulsive."

"I gave you enough opportunity to decide if you like me or not. I guess you need to think about it now from a distance."

"What do you mean?" his green eyes flashed with shock and question.

"I mean I need to stay away from you a little bit, until you decide the nature of our 'friendship'." I emphasized the word 'friendship'.

He shook his head in disbelief.

"No Alice, this is not necessary. Please don't keep yourself away from me."

"Yes it is necessary. For me. I like you Matt, maybe a little bit more than that. But I also like myself and I cannot let anyone play with my head and my career over for a fling."

"I am not playing with you Alice." He came closer and cupped my face with both of his hands now. Forced me to look into his eyes. The eyes like green forests.

"I am honest with you. Yes I have been scared, and I was struggling. But I don't want you to pull away from me. I cannot bear this Alice. I need you."

He was looking expectantly into my eyes. He was expecting for me to accept whatever he gives me and wait for him how long he needs to. Maybe eternity.

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"I am sorry Matt. I cannot do that." I said and drew myself out of his touch one more time. He tried to hold me again but I shook him off. I saw a taxi driving nearer to us from the head of the road.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

I walked near to the road and gestured to the taxi to stop. Matt came after me and held my wrist.

"Come on Alice, at least let me drive you back to the hotel."

"No thank you. I need space now." I said, shaking his hold once more. I opened the door of the taxi and threw myself to the rear seat.

"Grand Sanders Hotel please," I said to the driver. Matt was still standing next to the taxi and glowering at me through the window. I ignored his stare. Finally, the taxi drove off and left behind Matt and all the drama. I looked back and saw Matt was kicking a waste basket standing next to the sidewalk.

I looked out of the window and thought about the day. What a day it was. Even though I knew I did the right thing, something in my chest was squeezing me and aching. I like Matt. Maybe a little bit more than that. But I cannot deny how he treated me after the slightest closeness we shared. It was obvious he had some commitment issues. But I didn't have any real relationship before and I wasn't willing to dive into something which was clear would break my heart. Was I selfish? Maybe.

I could not deny that this reflex of self preservation has caused me to be single and virgin so far. But it was safer than to be in a relationship causing me to spend all of me but gain nothing in return. 'I did the right thing,' I comfort myself. Did I?

Taxi drew next to the entrance of the hotel. I paid and got out of it. I went back to our suite and headed directly to my room. Peeled off all of my clothes and laid down on the bed with my undergarments.

I was not sure how long passed while I was watching the ceiling and fighting with my thoughts. I like Matt but I hated the way he acted. And Antonio? I have no idea what I was feeling. Finally I decided to get up, pull something on me and take a glass of water.

I went to the kitchen area of the suite. As soon as I entered the kitchen, I was startled with the person I saw standing in front of me. This was a woman. Her back was turned to me so I didn't see her face at first. She was wearing a white shirt only. Even though the shirt was looking larger for her, apparently it belonged to a man, it was barely covering her ass. She had long beautiful legs and a quite charming figure. Blonde hair, shoulder length. I felt like I knew her. She was getting a cup of water, and turned when sensed me behind her. She was Ronda Meyers.

"Oh hi!" she shrieked when saw me.

"Hi," I said shyly as I tried to look at her eyes rather than her body to not make her feel uncomfortable.

"I wasn't expecting to see you here," she said. Well I should be the one who was not expecting her but didn't say this.

"I am sharing this suite with Mr. Alonzo" I said instead. She slightly squeezed her eyes as if bothered from this. Of course she was bothered by my presence. She came to see her boyfriend. They must be dating. I knew I shouldn't be surprised after seeing them at the office, but I never saw them publicly dating before and I thought it was not anything exclusive. So seeing her here was the last thing I was expecting. Maybe it was the last thing I was expecting after our moment with Antonio in the bazaar. Nonsense! Nothing happened. Just some fun time and holding hands. Why on earth, he held my hand? Why on earth, I liked that?

"I see..." she said as pulling me back from my thoughts.

"Anton was not in here, so I guessed maybe I could surprise him." She said as pulling the hems of the shirt to hide more of her body, uselessly.

I just nodded.

"Well we are not letting anyone know about our relationship, so I would be happy if you can keep this to yourself. I guess it is your duty also, as the assistant of Anton."

Relationship... There it was, the word. The real reason why I didn't see them together outside of the office after that day was this. But the word she used was relationship. So they were dating.

"Of course -..." my sentence was cut by the ding of the elevator and both of us turned to see who was coming. The elevator doors opened and the man behind the doors was seemed more surprised than us, "Ronda?" It was Antonio.