Uncontrollable Tempration

“Sophia.” She said with a serious tone. “Is your boss still harassing you?”

“No! No! Not at all, he got the memo already. He’s letting me go.” I said. Which was true because he had apologized for his cruel act yesterday and assured me that I would get my documents.

“Good. I can’t wait to see you my love.”

“Me too. I’m at work now mum so I’ll call you later.”

“I love you darling.”

“Love you too.” I said before I hung up.

I wish I get these papers today so I can leave New York tomorrow. Even the idea of moving back to Virginia was appealing to me but that would be the most cowardly thing I could ever do. I never run away from my issues and if I stay and find another job here in the city, it’s likely that I would run into Mr Wilson again. I’ll just have to deal with it.

*Hours later*

“Yes!” I breathed. That was the last of it.

I didn’t know I had so much stuff here in this office. I had completely made it my own! I laughed at myself.

I had two small boxes of personal belongings after packing all my stuff. Normal people just have their stationary.

There was a knock on my door. Since I was already standing, I went to open it to find Paul.

“Oh, hey Paul.” I greeted him.

“You alright Sophia?”

“Yeah. I just finished packing my stuff.” I showed him my empty office.

“Sweet. Well, these are your documents. You’ll need to review and sign them.” He held them out to me and I took them like he was handing me a golden treasure. “I’ve had them ready since day one but you know Adam, he wanted you here for longer and instructed me not to give them to you.”

“Really?! That’s awful of him.” I said and he laughed.

“Look. I don’t know what’s going on between you two, but it’s not hard to put two and two together.” He said.

“What do you mean?” I asked cautiously. Please let it not be what I think it means.

“I’m saying that Adam has never been skeptical about letting someone go. You’re different.” Here we go again. “Whatever happens, just make sure that you don’t regret your decision.”

“I understand perfectly what you’re implying Paul. But I NEED to leave. And nothing is going to change my mind.” I smiled at him.

He nodded his head respectfully and didn’t bring it up again.

“All you have to do now is get Adam to sign those documents. That wouldn’t be a problem since he prompted me to hand them to you today.”

“Thank you. If he hasn’t left yet then I could ask him to do so now.” I was anxious as hell to get them signed. It was as if I was bargaining for my freedom, and who doesn’t want to be free?!

“No, Adam left the office early this morning after his meeting with a client from AIRTEX.” Paul said.

“Oh.” I hadn’t known that. Probably because my blinds were closed and I made no effort to see him or bring him coffee.

“And it’s Friday today, so you’ll have to wait till Monday. Till then, you’re still committed to the office.”

No!

“Okay.”

“Alright. Goodluck with everything you have ahead of you.” He said and hugged me. This may be the last time we see each other.

“You too Paul.” I said and he left.

Once I closed the door I opened the envelope to take a look inside of it. It was quite heavy and had lots of papers. I wasn’t going to read all of that so I just signed it. About 7 different places required my signature.

Once I was done with that, I decided to leave. It was already 4pm anyway. Picking up my two boxes and handbag, I made my way out of the office. I said goodbye to many people on the way, except Phoebe.

She was still mad at me and obviously, she wasn’t in support of my resignation. She made that clear to me this afternoon when she didn’t have lunch with me. I didn’t even have the guts to ask her but I saw her at our usual Chinese outlet with someone else. I was forced to eat somewhere else all by myself.

After saying goodbye to everyone, I got a cab that took me home. The first thing I did was to book a flight to Virginia the next morning. I needed a vacation as soon as possible.

I got a large suitcase and began to pack my clothes, mostly dresses. I will be gone for at least a month so I need enough, unlike the last time where I literally packed nothing and had to squeeze into my old clothes.

It took me about an hour to finalize packing. After I booked the flight, I remembered Paul saying that I am still committed to the office unless Mr Wilson has signed the documents. If I leave for Virginia tomorrow, how will he sign the documents?

Well, it’s already too late because I’ve booked my flight already. I should have thought of that before doing so.

I decided to text Paul, just in case.

Hey, can I get the documents signed by Mr Wilson as soon as possible? I’m planning a trip and I can’t wait till tomorrow.

After that, I hit send. It didn’t take up to 10 minutes before he replied.

Not sure about that. Just got off the phone with him and he said he’s on his way home.

I can get him to sign them today, all I have to do is take it to him. But he has quite a few houses and I don’t know which he’s currently residing in.

If he could sign them today, that would be great. Is he currently staying at his apartment?

Yes. On 740 Park

Thank you 🙂

I had never been in that apartment before. But from the outside, it looked beautiful. Maybe the best out of all his residencies.

Ok, so I need to get ready and meet him there before it gets late. It was already 7pm, if I quickly had a shower and dressed up, I would be there around 8pm.

I am nervous as this may be the last time I see him… at least for a while.

***

Adam Wilson

“Everything is over. Completely ruined.” I spoke to the shrink.

“I did exactly what you asked me to do! In fact, I humiliated myself for that!” I shouted at him before taking a deep breath and calming down.

“Relax Adam. What exactly did you do?”

What did I do? I lost control. That’s what I did. I was blinded by desire and the only thing I had wanted was to devour her. I went too far and she felt… violated.

“I cannot tell you what I did to her, but I hurt her. I tried to amend things today but I couldn’t. She was really embarrassed at what happened and she resigned again, for the second time. Maybe I should just leave her alone, even though that’s not what I really want to do but I’ve caused her enough pain.”

“You’ve both caused each other enough pain. I’m sure other factors must have lead to her resignation.”

Yes, the fact that I had my hands in places where they shouldn’t have been. Fuck, she couldn’t even look me in the eyes.

No wonder why she doesn’t approve of me. I’m actually a piece of shit.

Even when I tried to fix things, she looked at me like I was crazy. I am ready to change for her but she doesn’t believe a word of it.

“It doesn’t matter anymore. She hates me and wants nothing to do with me so I’ve decided to give her her wishes and lay off. On Monday when I sign her severance check, she will officially resign from my company.”

“Sounds like you’ve given up.” He said while taking down some notes. What the hell was he writing? “How many packs of cigarettes have you smoked since our last session?”

“Multiple.”

“Not good enough. I’m afraid I have to put you on an Inhalator.”

“That’s not happening. I’ll stop. okay? Just give me time.”

“How much time do you need Adam?”

“I don’t know!” Maybe when I finally get Sophia out of my system… which is NEVER.

“Okay. How about we start by cutting down to 1 pack a week.”

“I don’t think I smoke up to that yet. But with the way things are going, I could get there.”

“Good. So it’s agreed, 1 pack a week. Now, what are you going to do about Sophia? You said you’re not going to give up on her. So why are you letting her go?”

“Honestly I don’t know.” I sighed. “I can’t force her to be with me. She can’t even stand me. And like I said, I made matters worse. I need to lay off.”

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“Yes!”

“Then why would you lay off? It’s only going to end up being another elastic band theory.”

He’s right. No matter what, I’ll keep running back to her. I just know it.

“I have to give her her resignation at the very least, I don’t want her to be miserable. But you’re right, I shouldn’t stop. I can still take a few more blows just for her.”

“Alright then. With all that said, this session is now over.”

We both stood up and shook hands

“I’ll try not to fuck things up some more before our next session.” I said and he laughed. “Hopefully, I don’t do anything stupid and I come back with some good results.”

“I hope so too.”

I left the therapists’ and drove home. I got a call from Paul Lewis with some update about our most recent liaison with AIRTEX.

Today was very busy. After meeting with their representative, I was invited over to the company itself to meet with the board of directors. Their main office was in Arizona but they have a branch here in New York. Our business deal was to provide them with 9 en route surveillance systems, in airport proximities and on the ground at airfields in Arizona. This is very huge and I’m glad I got to land a deal like this.

After that, I went for my weekly session of therapy and now, I’m back home.

I took the lift to my apartment. Once I got in, I poured myself a drink before I went to the balcony to relax and have a good view of the city. I took off my jacket and lit a cigarette.

My thoughts were running wild. Lately, I’ve been feeling lonely. I’ve gone to bed alone for months now and distracted myself all day with work. I have other people to talk besides the shrink, like my family. But they were all far away. Retired and living the dream in Spain. I was left with all the inheritance and the business to take care of.

But that was not the reason for my loneliness. It all boils down to one woman.