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Chapter 168
Chapter 168
Chapter 168 The Past Was Gone
Boris clenched his fists in shock.
Ziana’s response was like a heavy blow that landed directly on his heart.
Sharp pain and soreness spread instantly throughout his body, and all the strength seemed to be drained from him.
“What did you say?” His voice was h**rse, with barely detectable trembles.
Despite this, he forced a bitter smile on his face, unwilling to believe or accept the truth, much like an ostrich burying its head in the
sand.
He hung his head, avoiding her gaze, as if he were avoiding a cruel trial. “Ziana, don’t be angry and lie to me.”
Ziana shook her head, her tone firm. “I didn’t lie.”
Boris’ heart sank.
This feeling was even more overwhelming than when Ziana had rejected his proposal for remarriage the first time.
Boris panicked and tried to persuade Ziana, “Actually, you’re trying to make me jealous of him, right?”.
Ziana laughed at this. “No, I genuinely like…”
Boris knew what she was going to say, but he didn’t want to hear it.
He interrupted Ziana, even lowered his head to stare at his black shoes. “I know, I was too harsh on you in the past, but it’s okay. You like gentleness, and I can learn to change. I promise I’ll change, even in the areas you don’t like.”
“Boris…”
“I know that you love me. We have been together for three years, and we even have a kid. How can you change your mind so quickly? Do you remember what you said? You said you would always like me. You said it yourself. Have you forgotten?”
Ziana looked at the man in front of her.
Boris used to be confident and proud, but now he stood at the door, head hung low, like a child who had done something wrong.
This was the first time Boris had spoken to her with such a soft tone and even a humble, begging attitude.
For a brief moment, her heart was overwhelmed with a sharp pain, but she quickly told herself that she couldn’t turn back, that she
couldn’t be soft-hearted.
This was just an illusion. Boris’ pride was at stake. He couldn’t tolerate Ziana having someone else, but it wasn’t genuine love.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have left Ziana alone in an empty house for the past three years.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have belittled and ridiculed Ziana for the past three years.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have let Ziana taste the bitterness of unrequited love again and again.
If Boris loved/Ziana, he wouldn’t have been able to bear watching Ziana go through a cycle of hope and disappointment in the past three years,/letting Ziana struggle between love and non-love.
Ziana had lived in that state of anxiety, confusion, unease, and torment for three years.
She rescued herself from that relationship in a way that was almost like cutting off her right arm.
She didn’t want to go back.
She didn’t want Boris to affect her emotions anymore.
She didn’t want to keep tossing and turning because of him, fooling herself.
She didn’t want to speculate whether Boris loved her or not, to decipher the meaning behind every move Boris made.
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She didn’t want to become… not herself
Ziana took a deep breath.
Emotions were uncontrollable, which made people very pitiful.
She knew her decision clearly, but still felt sad.
She thought, this must be the difference between love and not loving.
She had loved Boris with all her heart and had become accustomed to liking what Boris liked and worrying about Bons’ wores.
Even if she no longer chose to love Boris, even if she no longer loved Boris as much, she still couldn’t bear to see Bons like this.
His dejected appearance affected Ziana, making her heart sink and her expression gradually colder.
After a moment, Ziana looked at him and said, word by word.
“Boris, raise your head.”
This tone made Boris realize something.
A feeling of unease surged in his chest.
This feeling reached its peak when Boris met her cold and calm eyes.
He saw a determination that seemed to have cut ties with the past.
Boris’ intuition told him that what Ziana was about to say next would cause him pain.
He had never had such a strong intuition, so strong that it frightened him.
So he wanted to get away.
Boris even forgot that he came to accuse Ziana, and didn’t care about her answer. All he thought about was that he couldn’t stay here anymore. He couldn’t give Ziana the chance to say those words.
Boris didn’t look at Ziana.
Boris didn’t want to see her expression. He turned and walked out. “I suddenly remembered that there’s still something I need to do at
work…”
“Running away won’t help,” Ziana’s voice followed him like a shadow. “I said I would always love you.”
“Then keep loving me,” Boris squeezed his fingers and interrupted her, “you’ve already loved me for three years. It’s not hard for you, is
it? You promised me that you would love me.”
“You can take me as breaking my promise,” Ziana’s light words caught him off guard.
Boris looked up in astonishment and heard her continue, “Boris, no flowers will bloom forever. Without rain and sunshine, and without
careful nurturing, flowers will die.”
Boris’ chest embled, and his breathing became a little short. “Then I’ll give you rain and sunshine, and I’ll take good care of you. I’ll
give you whatever you want.”
“Come back to me, Ziana,” he pleaded.
Ziana still shook her head. “But unfortunately, flowers have a blooming period. What’s the use of taking care of flowers that bloom in
the spring when autumn arrives?”
Boris pursed his lips.
“You’re used to taking, used to my love for you. So now that I’m leaving, you can’t accept it. Actually, you don’t really have feelings for me. It’s just your possessiveness acting up. It’s just that the time since the divorce isn’t long enough yet, but you’ll get used to it
because I won’t come back.”
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Boris could no longer ignore the pain in his heart.
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It felt like Ziana was holding his heart in her hands, and every word she spoke caused Boris excruciating pain.
The pain was so intense that his eyes were sore, his teeth were chattering, and he even felt a hint of resentment.
He placed his hand on his chest, trying to alleviate the pain, but he couldn’t bear the thought of losing Ziana. He was jealous and resentful.
He looked at Ziana with reproach, as if Ziana had betrayed him. “You don’t come back because of Edison! Have you fallen out of love
with me? Do you want to be with him?”
Ziana knew there was no reasoning with him.
How could he understand the feeling of falling out of love with someone he never loved in the first place?
She didn’t deny it and nodded honestly. “Yes, I want to try to get to know Edison. If it works out, I will date him and marry him.”
She couldn’t stay in the same place anymore. She had to move forward.
Because the past was gone.
Holding onto it was futile.
Mourning was futile.
Looking back was even more futile.
Boris had never felt so clearly before that he was going to lose Ziana. Everything he had done with Ziana, the intimate and not so
intimate moments, would be shared with another man in the future.
They would kiss, they would sleep together, and they might even have children together.
Just the thought of it made him feel like he couldn’t accept it.
“No!” His anger surged up, and the pain in his chest made him gasp for air. “I won’t allow it! I won’t allow you to be with him! If you dare to like him, I have a hundred or even a thousand ways to kill him!”
Ziana’s face changed suddenly. “Boris, if you dare to harm him, I won’t forgive you!”
“You’re still defending him!” Boris’s voice trembled with anger. “How dare you still defend him!”
He didn’t care about anything now. All he could think of was that he couldn’t let go no matter what.
He would definitely kill Edison!
He’d kill anyone who tried to steal his woman!
“Great!” He sneered. His eyes were like those of a demon who had climbed up from hell. “Great! I’ll kill him right now. Let’s see if I dare!”