fanqie novel
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Morgan pov.
"You went rouge Morgan." Isa can't hide her displeasure when she looks at me and I can't hide my anger. "This wasn't part of the plan. We're not ready. We don't have the numbers, and you just walked into the Bio-Glaze and took one of their leaders. What were you thinking?" She's not looking for a smart answer, so I give her a true one.
"That you're all sitting here with your hands under your asses, too scared to do something. In case you haven't noticed, they're in an even worse position than we are, Isa. Also, if they hadn't taken my sister, they would still have their damn leader, but she's my plaything now." Casey vibrates in agreement under my skin, making it glow slightly as my magic threatens to burst at the seams.
"You're not in your right mind, Morgan." Agness says, looking at me like I'm some deranged lunatic. "You've gone through more than we thought you could handle. This is our fault, let us help you." She holds out her hand for me to take and I stare at her like she's crazy.
"No, don't you date make me out to be the bad guy here. What is this? I give you everything I have and just keep quite about my frustrations. I'm the one you can't make a move without but if it's not one you approve of it's wrong. You've all lost your fucken minds. This. This is what everything has been boiling down to so you either get with the program or take a fucken seat. I'm going to see if my sister has woken up and then I'm going to get the information you refuse to get." I look at Benjamin who only meets my eyes for a few seconds.
"Morgan..." Ragna steps forward, and I glare at him. "I'd like to join you, when you interrogate her." I nod, looking over at Rain who pushes away from the wall and walks over to me. The moment our hands touch I blink us into the room where Kyle moved her to so she could be more comfortable. There's a Fairie there adjusting her IV's and fluttering about doing heavens only knows what.
"She hasn't woken up yet. Maybe give her a day or two?" She gives me a sympathetic smile that I try not to internalize as I walk over to Torren. Her skin is pale, a somewhat grey pallor to it that makes me concerned. As I touch her hand, I feel my magic surround her and I allow Casey to do whatever she's doing until she's done. Torren doesn't wake up, but she doesn't look as pale as before and the greyness of her skin is gone.
"You didn't tell me what you were doing." Rain sighs, moving to stand on the other side of her bed. "I would have helped you." I allow my gaze to move over him. The tan skin, twitchy ears hidden under a mop of curls. He owns my whole being and I can feel the hurt my actions caused him. The worry that's still present in our bond leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.
"I didn't know what I was doing until I was doing it." I confess. I'd woken up after Ragna had just shattered my entire world and there was nothing. A terrifying nothingness inside of me and then the anger settled in, and I was walking through the Bio-Glaze on a hunt for my sister.
"I couldn't find you." I frown, not knowing what he means, and he knows that. "Morgan, I turned my back for a few minutes and then there's this solid wall that goes up between our link. You were gone, replaced by this solid void, it was terrifying. I didn't even feel that way when you were in the prism." As he talks about it the feeling floods through our bond, and I turn my head to the side.
"Just after I woke up?" He shrugs his shoulders. "There was nothing." I admit. "When I woke up. There was nothing and then there was so much anger, and I didn't know what else to do with it other than find my sister. It was..." I sigh, not knowing what to say except that the feeling is still there. The anger still bubbling inside of me, just waiting to boil over. A reminder that a shitty situation is still waiting to get even more so.
"Do you think..." He trails off but I manage to catch his train of thought before he can block it off from me. It's like a physical blow, causing me to take a few steps backward and I can see the regret in his eyes. The damage that's been done that he can't take back.
"You think Magnus is right? That there's something wrong with me?" I wish he would say it's not so. That it was just a silly thought, but I know he doesn't think so. "You can't be on their side." I almost choke out.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g
"I'm not." Rain defends. "I'm on your side, always. I just want you to be happy and you're not. Things keep happening and you keep taking blows and you don't deal with any of it." My skin feels like it's itchy the more I listen to him talk. Like I'm breaking out in hives as the other half of my soul turns on me.
"Things will always keep happening. They've been happening ever since I was born apparently. How do you want me to deal with them? Take some personal time and reflect on all the hurt I've been put through? Look at where we are Rain." I wave my arms in large up and down motions as I talk. "I lost you and then my sister, my parents, my sense of reality, my baby..." I choke out the word. "All because someone else thought it would be best to control my life and now, you're standing here, telling me that there's something wrong with me?"
"There's nothing wrong with you." He sounds about as desperate as I feel and I don't stop him as he rounds Torren's bed, rushing to pull me into a hug. I allow him to hold me, resting my head against his chest as he runs his fingers through my hair. "Hush, there's nothing wrong with you." Even as he says it, I know he doesn't believe it, not really. There's a painfully murky part of his emotions that makes everything he says unbelievable.
"Rain?" I finally ask, breaking the silence that has settled over us. "You remember how we said that I need you as my Imprint to function?" He hums again so I pull away from him and look right up at him. "So, if I'm broken, does it mean you are too, or did I break you?" A heavy cloud settles over us, one that would stay there for a while because when I look over at my sister, she's staring at me with eyes filled with questions. I step away from my Imprint and walk towards her, wondering if there's a tangible moment my life started falling apart or if all this has been a lifetime in the making...