Apologies
Lilly.
Things did not remain the same after Jake left. As soon as he was gone, Kyle changed from sweet to monster in seconds.
“What the hell was that man doing here?” he yelled.
I was confused because I didn’t expect him to react like that. From the time we had started dating, he had been sweet and nice to me, never yelling or making a bad comment.
“He wanted to talk,” I said.
Kyle tilted his head and took two steps forward. “Since when are you and Jake Rylland on talking terms?”
“We’re not. He’s the one who wanted to talk to me. Why are you overreacting?”
“I want to know everything that happened between you two,” he said. “When I asked you if you hated him, you got so defensive. That means there’s more than meets the eye. I’m your boyfriend now so I deserve to know everything.”
“I don’t have to tell you anything about Jake. If anything happened between me and him, it was way before you were in the picture. There’s no reason why I should tell you each and everything I have ever done in my life.”
Kyle started pacing back and forth while seething. I just stood there and observed him, feeling confused. “You know what, it doesn’t even matter. Jake Rylland would never date someone like you. I don’t even know why I’m worried yet you’re not his type. He will never love you. All he wants to do is use you and when he is done, he’ll drop you like a sack of potatoes.”
I tilted my head. “Why do you think Jake can never love me? Am I too ugly?”
He laughed hard. “You’re not ugly, but you’re no supermodel and we both know that.”
I gasped. “So you don’t think I wouldn’t be worth it to him?”
“Have you seen the women he dates? You’re amazing, Lilly but just not Jake’s type.”
“Get out of my house.”
He hurried to me and pulled me into his arms. “Now baby, don’t get like this. I love you, and I don’t care if you don’t like America’s top supermodel. I love you just the way you are.”
I pushed him away. “You’ve said enough. Just leave me alone.”
I knew I was not the most beautiful girl in the world. I knew that I was not perfect. For him to rub it in like that was totally insensitive. For him to say I was never going to be good enough for a man like Jake spoke volumes. Quickly, I began to evaluate things. What did this man think of me? Was Kyle really in love with me? Did he spend his nights wishing he was in some supermodels bed only to wake up and realise he was with plaid old Lilith Hellman.
“Just go.”
“I’m not going anywhere until you tell me the truth about Jake.”
“Well, I’ve already told you I won’t say a thing. If you don’t want to leave, I’ll call the police.”
“I doubt that very much. You love me.”
I rolled my eyes. If he only knew.
“It’s alright. I’ll leave anyway. I had decided to forego a work party just to be with you but I guess I’ll go back to it. Do you wanna come?”
I shook my head.
“Okay, see you soon, baby.”
He went to the bedroom and put on his clothes. A few minutes later, he exited, gave me a kiss and went out of my apartment. I went and closed the door before returning to the couch. Surprisingly, I was feeling relived that Kyle was gone. Lately, he had been coming around too much and hovering over me all the time. I rarely got time for myself which was pretty exhausting. I needed some alone time. I was glad that Jake had come and caused an argument which had sent him away.
However, I was not happy about Jake’s coming because it had made me want him more than ever. I hated that I wanted something that was very unattainable. Jake could never be mine. Even Kyle had said it. Jake was interested in hotter women. Why did he have to come and remind me that I couldn’t have him whenever he got the chance?
I was frustrated and I didn’t know what to do. I liked to avoid drinking when I was stressed because I didn’t want to get addicted to it as a coping mechanism. I decided to scroll through social media and stalk Ashley Kendall, again.
Ashley Kendall was the model who had been pictured kissing with Jake. Jake had said she kissed him and I was beginning to wonder if it was true or he was just playing with my mind again.
I stared at her beautiful and perfect Instagram pictures, taken from various locations in the world. It was clear that the woman was enjoying life to the fullest while I spent mine locked up in either a dreary office or apartment.
She was very beautiful and sexy. Every part of her body was symmetrical. She was tall and had a very flat stomach and a rounded small butt. Surely, who wouldn’t want that? I was sure even Kyle wished he could have her over me.NôvelDrama.Org owns this text.
Was she capable of kissing a man who didn’t want to be kissed by her? I couldn’t believe it. No, she must have been having hundreds, if not, thousands of men after her. Why would she force herself on anyone?
Jake must have done something to make her believe that he wanted to kiss her. When I read that she had also been in Illistra the last weekend, everything made sense. She and Jake must have been together. There was nothing to explain and id be stupid to believe any excuses Jake was planning to give.
I closed the browser and went to my call log. I dialled Kyle’s number.
“Hello,” he said after picking up.
“Kyle, I’m sorry for being so rude to you.”
“It’s okay, baby. I’ve already forgiven you. I’m sorry for being rude and unreasonable.”
“That’s alright. Are you still going to the party? Can we catch up?”
“I’d love that.”
I smiled. “I’ll get ready now.”
“And I’ll pick you up.”
“Alright.”