Don’t Cry Baby

Chapter 19

Tyler was late for work when we finished, he grabbed the breakfast I had started to make to go and left

in a hurry. We didn't say much to each other before he left. He kissed me goodbye and that was about

it. I watched him pull out of the driveway from the couch not feeling like moving. I grab a blanket from

the back of the couch and pull it over me, the draft in the house sending a chill through my body and

goosebumps begin to form. Wanting to warm up I stand up and pad over to the bathroom with the

blanket still wrapped tightly around me wanting to keep any warmth I have on me. I walk into the

bedroom, ignoring the feeling that fills me as I stare at the one spot in the room that will never be the

same. I avert my eyes and set the blanket on the end of the unmade bed, I turn towards the bathroom

and walk in flipping the light on as I step through the door. I walk towards the counter and grab a towel

from the cupboard underneath the sink, I set it on the bar to the left of the shower and turn the water

on. I feel it with my hand waiting for the temperature I want, the steam rises from behind the floral

curtain. I pull it back and step into the shower trying not to slip.

As I step inside and let the water hit my skin, I close my eyes and feel the water against my face. I push

back the images that instantly fill my head as my eyes close. The images of Damien lying still on the

floor of our bedroom, the eyes I will never get to see, his hands at his sides unclenched and unmoving.

I squeeze my eyes and try to shake the images out of my head, they won't stop flowing. Tyler

squeezing the life from him won't stop replaying, my legs feel like jello as I slide down the wall of the

shower. I pull my knees up to my chest and lay my forehead against my knees. It's like all of it is

happening all over again, I'm watching Tyler hurting Damien all over again. I need it to stop, I need the

pain to stop. I feel like the breath from my lungs is gone, I bite down hard on my lip until I taste blood. I

don't know how long I can handle this, I need something else to feel besides this. I hit my head against

the wall as if I'm trying to get rid of the memories. I hit my head harder against the wall, hard enough

my vision gets fuzzy, the pain of hitting my head brings my breath back and I feel like I can breathe

again. I take a shaky breath and slowly stand up on shaky legs. Not wanting to waste anymore water I

finish washing my body and hair and climb out of the shower.

I reach for the towel dry my hair and body with it before wrapping it tightly around myself. I leave the

bathroom letting the cold air of my bedroom hit me. I decide to put on some shorts and a baggy shirt

before leaving the bedroom and making my way back to the kitchen. I reach the back counter and start

making some tea. As I open the cupboard where I keep my tea I hear a noise at the door, some urgent

knocking. I scrunch my eyebrows and walk towards the door to look through the peephole. Darcy

stands there looking concerned. I unlock the door and welcome her in. She walks in rubbing her arm ,

her obviously tear streaked face scrunched with worry as she turns back to face me. I step towards her

and she shrugs away from my touch.

"Do you know where he is?" My heart feels like it drops to my stomach as she speaks those words,

knowing she can't possibly be talking about Damien but I still feel nervous.

"Darcy what's going on?" I try once more to reach for her, this time she lets me touch her arm. She

folds in on herself as she feels my touch against her skin. She walks closer to me and lets me wrap my

arms around her, I gently rub her back as she cries on me.

"He...he left me Al." My stomach churns as these words came out of her mouth, I can't help but feel

confused. Surely Tyler would have shared this with me , he works with Charlie everyday. I don't

understand why he would keep something like this from me.

"What do you mean he left you, what happened?" I lead her towards the table and help her sit down. I

offer her some tea and she nods slowly.

"He texted me last night and told me he was leaving, he said he couldn't do it anymore. I'm sorry I

barged in here, I just thought maybe Nate would have shared something with you."

"No , I'm sorry he never shared anything like that with me. Did he say why he couldn't do it anymore.

Did something happen at work maybe?" I quickly pick some tea and two cups and make it while we

continue the conversation.

"No, it all came as a surprise. I sent the boys to daycare this morning, they kept asking about their

dad." She lays her head in her hands and tries to take a few deep breaths. I feel helpless as I watch

her cry, I wish I could help her feel better in some way. Maybe, I should call Ty.

"Maybe I'll call Nate." I bring her , her tea and excuse myself to make the call. I walk into the bedroom

and grab my cellphone from the bedside table. I press his number and sit at the edge of my bed, it

takes him a bit to pick up. I hear him press the accept button and I hear some voices in the

background.

"Hey Ash, sorry I'm pretty busy hear. Is it important?"

"Yeah, it's about Charlie. Is he at work?"

"Yeah he's here, why?"

"Does he seem off?"

"No, he said he's missing Darcy today and is thinking of doing something special for her" My eyebrows

scrunch together as he finishes saying this, even more confused then I was before I stand and walk

towards the doorway of my bedroom. I can see Darcy still sitting at the table. I close the door slowly

and lower my voice on the phone. All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

"Tyler, Darcy is here and she's saying that he left her last night."

"That seems strange, maybe find a way to get her to leave and then call me back when you do."

"Okay, talk to you later Ty." I hang up and set the phone on the bed where I was sitting. I stand up and

walk towards the door , I twist the nob and pulling the door open. Standing there with her head cocked

to the side, eyebrows furrowed.

"I knew that you looked too young."